I'm staring at this blank screen. Restless. Spent. Feeling inadequate. Recovering from a week of sickness. My mind is swirling with prep to leave for the Influence Conference in 2 days. I am feeling small but thrilled and expectant about what God has planned for this group of women gathering to seek the Lord. I've been praying about how I fit in to this blogging world. What do I have to offer? How can I be a light? And how do I do anything for his glory without first being open to hearing Him speak?
The truth is I'm restless. I'm disorganized. I'm all over the place. Unfocused. Undisciplined. And too hurried and busy to sit still and listen. My prayer this week has been "Lord, help me slow down. Stop me. Be with Me. Help me to rest in you." And he is so faithful.
I was told recently by my Influence buddies about an artist named Audrey Assad. I went to check out her music and found this song called "Restless". What a gift this song is to me this week...at precisely when I needed it. The lyrics spoke directly to me:
Still my heart,
hold me close
Let me hear a still small voice
Let it grow,
let it rise
Into a shout,
into a cry
And I am restless, I'm restless
'Til I rest in You, let me rest in You
And I am restless, so restless
'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You
Rest. Sweet, sweet rest. It's something we need in many forms... physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. I'm thankful for four days at the end of this week to seek it, in all it's forms. Less of me, and more of you, Lord.
And if you haven't seen it yet, Sarah Markley is doing an awesome 31 Days series about Rest. It's been a blessing to me this first week of October as I struggle with restlessness and weariness.
Find rest this week my friends.